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Thursday, December 29, 2011

....these are a few of my favourite things...

earlier today, ive been let down, and i felt really terrible to be held captive in yet another thrash talk [my official term for meetings nowadays]..i was squirming in my seat praying for the meeting to finish early, but i could not bear the nonsense any longer, so i just fled the scene.

i found myself staring into the open sea, watching the muddy murky waves breaking the dirty shore...thinking, even this unglamorous kola beach is affected by change..[they plan to build a resort nearby]...

people change..things change..there's nothing you can do about it..change is inevitable..

i guess i just had to go with the flow...no matter how bitter it gets..

guess, the real underlying problem is actually ME...and my refusal to tolerate with things...blame me for having low bullshit tolerance..

and its making me feel so low.....

"When the dog bites

When the bee stings

When I'm feeling sad

I simply remember my favorite things

And then I don't feel so bad......"

as a small girl, i used to listen to the lyrics of ' my favourite things ' sung by Maria from the movie,'the sound of music'..

so, i decided to look at my favourite things...so all the bad feelings would subside.......

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

.....hands up...!

Whose handwriting is this?

Please raise your hand..........

holy macarons...!!!!

i was returning home from what i considered as a freakishly bad meeting which was full of thrash talking.i had to put up with such insult, while at the same time trying to keep my sanity alive by keeping my expression completely neutral which was actually hard to do..... such a lousy start for a new academic year...driving home,i tried to figure out how am i going to survive the new management..then came the phone call..owh .there should be a special package delivery. for me.upon reaching my house, i saw a lady standing at the gate. she handed something to me. i really had no idea what it was, but i got into my house and put the whole package on the kitchen table...

there was a special message attached to it which reads,
" TO : Beloved Teacher Zill (at this point, i already knew whos the sender...sikit x surprise..:P)
i would like to express my deepest gratitude and heartfelt thanks to you for your genuine love, concern, thoughtfulness and kindness for me throughout the year. you're irresistable and a-we-some forever.!!!
i hope that 2012 will better for you...(just what i need..)
be strong with all your heart!!!
happy new year to you and family!!!
love you, hugs and kisses !!!

let's untie the ribbon..and..


colorful macarons....!!!!!

these yummy macarons are made with egg whites, icing sugar, granulated sugar, almond/peanut powder/ground and food colouring. and the sweet peanut and buttery aroma hit my nostrils the moment the case was opened.. the smell reminded me of freshly baked peanut butter cookies coming straight out of the oven ...

just look at the different fillings - my guesses would be chocolate, peanut butter, tiramisu , toffee, caramel .......

yummy yummy yummy....

stack them up, lie them down, they look just as good as they taste...

thank you very much for the wishes..so kind and thoughtful of you..i just cannot find words strong enough to thank you. and thanks for the sweet colourful macarons too!!they really brighten up my day..!!!exactly what i need after such a lousy day..!!

Monday, December 26, 2011


i'm overhaulin' my closet..

recycled clothes,anyone......?

Thursday, December 15, 2011

you just don't understand....

that feeling you have,
when you tried to justify yourself,
but misunderstood by others,
as they based their assumptions according to their limited comprehension,
and failed to see the whole picture,
yet claiming that they knew well what had happened to you....

the feeling is like
a fried potato
being fried
over and over
a g a i n .......

Sunday, December 11, 2011

La Luna.....

A total lunar eclipse took place on December 10, 2011. It was the second of two total lunar eclipses in 2011, the first having occurred on June 15. A lunar eclipse occurs when the moon is positioned just right in its orbit to pass through Earth's shadow. Asia, Australia, and other areas of the Pacific had the best visibility. European countries only saw a partial eclipse of a rising moon, while northwestern North America saw a partial eclipse of a setting moon. Due to air pollution around major metropolitan cities, the eclipsed moon had a reddish appearance, while, in more rural, less-populated areas, the eclipse was more clear.

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

What happens during a lunar eclipse?

Penumbral eclipse begins – The outer, light penumbral shadow begins to cover the moon. This phase of the eclipse is subtle. Some people say they can’t tell it’s happening, even while looking right at it. It looks like a dusky shading moving across the moon’s face. For the next hour or two, gradually more and more of the moon will be in shadow.
Partial eclipse begins – The inner, dark umbral shadow begins to cover the moon. Like the penumbral shadow, it starts on one side and slowly creeps across the moon’s face. It looks like a dark bite taken out of the moon.
Total eclipse begins – The dark shadow completely covers the moon. This is the total phase of the eclipse, called the totality. It generally lasts for the better part of an hour. During the totality, the shadow on the moon often appears red. It is very beautiful!
Greatest eclipse – The middle of the eclipse. The totality is still going on.
Total eclipse ends – The inner, dark umbral shadow begins to leave the moon’s face. A sliver of light appears on one edge of the moon. For the next hour or two, gradually less and less of the moon will be in shadow.
Partial eclipse ends – The inner, dark umbral shadow leaves the moon.
Penumbral eclipse ends – the light, outer penumbral shadow leaves the moon. The eclipse is over.

i got a few calls from friends insisting me to join them at the beach for that lunar eclipse gazing. i had to decline those tempting invitations. ive planned to watch it live from the comfort of my backyard, reclining in my lawn chair sipping tea and just enjoying the one of the nature's grandest spectacles. my only worry was those clouds which might be obscuring the eclipse.

- the cloudy dusk clocked at 7.15pm shortly before the setting of the eclipse ; and you can see how the moon was gradually taken in by the dark side (err...?!)

` the actual image of the lunar eclipse...such an amazing sight to behold....

Friday, December 9, 2011

Colour of the year 2012 :

"Color forecasting firm Pantone has declared Tangerine Tango as the defining shade for 2012 in a report released December 8.
For more than a decade, the company has selected its Color of the Year, influencing product development and purchasing decisions in multiple industries including fashion, home, and beauty.
2012's shade, PANTONE® 17-1463 Tangerine Tango, is a reddish orange shade, described by the brand as "vivacious" and "enticing."
"Sophisticated but at the same time dramatic and seductive, Tangerine Tango is an orange with a lot of depth to it," explained Pantone's executive director Leatrice Eiseman."

Relaxnews – Thu, Dec 8, 2011

..personally, i like the colour..it reminds me of jack o'lantern and halloween..

at least, i could get some insight on what to include into my already boring closet (which is dominated by mostly black and red) when i do my shopping next week ;]

...vivacious + enticing + sophisticated + dramatic + seductive ....woohooo....i love the way they are grouped together in the same line!!! what a gay way to welcome 2012.......

(already imagining the same witches of 2011 who labelled me as 'gedix' eyeing me and hovering over me like a predator, giving me that look when i pass by them in matching tangerine tango handbag and mary jane...and id be shashaying gracefully giving them this diva gaga bitch move, like something Victoria Beckham would do at your wedding just to upstage you...)

here i go again.........


Time you enjoyed wasting, was not wasted!

...which is why i don't quite get it when the youth of today keep on complaining of how bored they are with stuff around them..i mean, im quite lucky coz i could always find things to do if im stuck with something, and i don't easily get bored..yes, sometimes, people bore me;but i quickly discovered that boring people can be somehow entertaining :) when im being dragged into a boring situation with no hope of escaping, i would quickly come up with something just to divert my mind from being dragged into the looms of boredom..

which is why i could spend quiet times at home for 72 hours straight without feeling the sun on my skin, coz i would always find something to do.theres always things to do..like right now, nothing is more enjoyable than sitting infront of this laptop, wasting mytime blogwalking and stalking..ngehehehhh....

what do i do here..?

what do i do here in the waiting?

what do i do here with my unsatisfied heart?

what do i do here in the waiting?

here in the tension of believing

again and again,

cause there's a lack,

there's a gap in my soul,

between the things

that i believe

and i know....

[frankly,i didn't come up with these beautiful depressing words..i stumbled upon this poem (cannot exactly remember the when or where, but according to my journal, it should be written sometime in June,2003).ya, i do keep a journal since i was in secondary school,[mind you:its not a diary, but a journal,OK]..and there are so much,so many things i could share in this blog, and thats exactly what im doing...
...and could the real poet please stand up? coz im using your beautiful poem without your permission, and do tell me what you feel, and i wouldn't hesitate to delete this entry coz its not o r i g i n a l........

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

the other day, i was lamenting and expressing my disappointment towards a friend to my significant other. the person whom i considered a friend, was not the person i hope she would be. she frustrated me with her 'couldn't care less' attitude which has really put me into trouble and whats worse, i had to shoulder the consequences of her inconsiderate,thoughtless and irresponsible attitude alone.

listening patiently, he just looked at me,nodding once in a while, and giving me minimal encouragements, up to the stage where in between my catharsis, i started to wonder if i was making sense to him. so, i stopped whining. he simply jestered, 'about time you find a new friend..she's not a friend..'

[but i didn't find her...she found me........]

people will upset us, and disappoint us, and holding on to anger will only take away the energy that we need in order to produce the desired results that we seek out of life!